I will never fully understand life. Do i really want to? Or does anyone ever really get to understand life. Thats what life is all about, trying to get as close as you can to figuring it out. For some reason i think that i am farthest from ever knowing anything.

Sleeping is Over-Rated anyways.

I don’t know what it is, but its been a couple of days now. And i have probably only gotten a few hours of sleep. I have a lot on my mind lately. I know thats the reason that i can’t sleep. Why can’t my brain just sleep for a second so i can atcually get a good night sleep? Why can’t things be better in my life so sleep can come easy?

I have always had sleeping problems, but now is the time where it is the hardest. i don’t have any books to read, just old magazines. i think i need to go get some new books, maybe if i get some boring books i can sleep.

I used to drive and that got me sleepy. I would just drive to the beach. Maybe go in for a dip at night. But that doesn’t seem to work anymore. I don’t know, i think it is time for me to go get some drugs. Drugs are the answer these days, like, take some drugs it will change everything. I have a highly addictive personality, so i don’t think that is a very good idea. But i will look into it.


I have been having the same dream lately. Its based in the future, and for some reason i am moving loads and loads of white clothes into a room. I think it is a laundry room, but i am not to sure. i have been having this dream for about 4 days in a row now. Every dream is not exactly the same, but i am basically doing the same thing.